- Chilled with Jamie Foxx in VIP at the Skybar
- Sat at a table next to George Clooney and his girlfriend
- Saw Scott Caan eating breakfast at Swingers
- stayed in a house in the Hollywood Hills
- the house flooded like Hurricane Katrina
- Had the best sushi ever at Koi in Hollywood
- Seriously considering a move to LA
Another understatement would be the fight me and Brian had. I wasn't even yelling, he did at me the whole time. I learned a lot. He has been working a lot and thought that since he couldn't pay attention to me that i would find someone that would. he gives me no credit but rightfully so. i understand that he is working. since i didn't cancel the trip he kinda flipped and we argued before i left. he said a lot of mean things and hurt me. Nicole called and told me that they (her, Jason, and Brian) were in DC for the game.
he had never yelled at me like that before. i understood where he was coming from but still i cant take this. i don't know if i did something stupid. i called the new guy. he called me everyday while i was in LA and even gave me the hook up so we could get into certain clubs in LA. so when i called him crying, he was concerned. I should back up a little. The fashion show that I mentioned last week I went to and saw him there. It was a little awkward, but we both played it cool. after all ,the gang went. myself, Jason, Nicole, and Brian. it was fun. i need to say me and Brian haven't had sex since we went that party a couple of weeks ago and i am starting to wonder. i wouldn't be surprised if he was hooking up with chicks it would explain why he has been so crazy lately.
the day after the fashion show i went on a date with the new guy. he took me to the geisha house and we had a couple of cocktails later and conversation, it was nice. it was the first date i had been on in a million years. i really like him. now i am scared. i don't feel the butterflies for Brian. i don't know if i ever have. he has just become crazy. Saturday we drove to Chattanooga and spent the day there. Imagineer is what he is and i like it. all these things were his ideas and it felt good to have some one court me. i don't think i want a relationship well, i cant say that i don't know.... anyway....
i called him crying. me and Brian had a fight about everything. when i called and stumbled to get out what happened out he was real calm and met me at a restaurant close to my house. he suggested that i take my car home and chill with him. i did. he followed me home, I grabbed some clothes and left. we ended up back at his place. he lived in lofts in downtown Atlanta. his place was nice. it was a bachelor pad for sure. pool tables, video game systems, movies, the works. i sat on the sofa and turned on the TV or at least tried. he yelled out from the kitchen if i wanted something to drink and i told him no. i did but i wanted to watch him make my drink. i went to the kitchen and sat at the bar. i asked him if he had wine and he yes. he grabbed a glass and popped open the wine. it was Merlot, which i don't drink, but alcohol is alcohol.
he asked me what i wanted to do and i told him honestly didn't know. i thought about it and i suggested that we drink wine, sit on the balcony, and order take out. which we did. we talked about everything and laughed a lot. some of his neighbors came over and he put on some old school r&b like Jade, Guy, and Bobby Brown. We were laughing and had a good time doing the old school dances. the night passes so quickly when there is good conversation, wine, old school music. i was getting tired so i went and changed into my tshirt and girly boxers. i honestly didn't feel funny about spending the night with him because i have already did that. granted we kissed the whole night and slept maybe three hours but none the less.
i got in the bed and he got in the bed too. he played some tunes from his ipod stereo. soon Eric Roberson was filling the room. what he know about some Eric Roberson? he felt and smell so good laying next to me. my heart was being so hard i thought he could hear it. he grabbed me and pulled me close. i could have melted. he kissed me on the forehead and turned his head in the opposite direction. i just laid there. i was shocked. i am in the arms of a man i don't know anything about. i wish i could have gotten up and snooped but i knew that i couldn't get out of his grip.
It was the middle of the night when i first felt it. it was hard as a rock. my god. it has to be huge. i was kinda turned on. then i wondered were was the woman in his life. did i even care? my track record isn't that good and i don't want any surprises. i got up and went to the bathroom. i didn't have to pee but i looked for woman stuff. i ran the water and quietly opened the medicine cabinet. nothing. i opened the other cabinets under the sink. nothing. the bathroom closet. nothing. surely he has someone. he is pretty cool. maybe he is crazy..... i came out of the bathroom and went to the kitchen. i poured another glass of wine. maybe i am over analyzing this. i should just go with the flow. he isn't my man. i was freaking out because he gave me butterflies and i haven't had those in years. i don't want to do anything stupid. i walked to the balcony and stepped outside. it wasn't cold but there was a slight breeze. it felt good. i sat in the chairs and looked out at the sky. i am stressed. there is so much going on.
i was zoned out when he came on the balcony and sat in the chair next to me. i got up and went back to the bedroom. he was soon laying next to me. he was everywhere! I was trying to avoid him but that's hard to do in someone else's house. i laid down on his chest. he asked me if I was okay. i told him yes but that's not how i really felt. i looked up at him and kissed him. before i knew it my shirt was off and his was too. he stopped kissing me and i prayed to god that he didn't say anything stupid and he didn't. he didn't say anything at all. i asked him what was wrong and he told me it was getting heavy and he didn't know how far to go. that was sweet. at least he didn't say something completely stupid. i pulled him closer to me and he started to kiss me again. he was touching me softly. it was then i asked about a woman in his life. he said they broke up six months ago because he didn't want to marry her. whoa commitment issues just like me. this may work!!!!
he went on to say that it was because there were a lot of things that he didn't like and it wouldn't work especially in a marriage. oddly, enough that turned me on. he started to kiss me again this time and we didn't stop. he is real gentle and soft and i didn't hold my breath. he is a big guy but he made me feel relaxed. it was kinda rough starting out because my body is so weird. My va jay-jay closes up in a heartbeat. during the act he asked me if i was okay and said little sweet stuff. I don't think I have ever felt this relaxed since i lost my virginity 8 years ago. its weird. i never felt like this before. am i cheating? i think so. afterwards he held me so close and tight. i wanted to believe that he cared about me. maybe he did. to be on the safe side i assumed that he didn't. Guard ON!
i am starting already. i make the assumption that guys don't care to protect myself. i don't wont to be hurt so i think bad thoughts so i wont be attached. i didn't sleep at all. i laid there thinking that i had done something so completely wrong, the only thing is i didn't regret it. he woke up and and i told him to take me home. i had some running around to do and he told me he would like to kick it with me before i left. i wanted to be cold hearted but i couldn't. i went home grabbed my luggage and we went to eat. i felt awkward but okay. Brian didn't call. i knew he didn't care about me. i left and the new guy called the whole time i was in LA. he picked me up from the airport and we stopped and had a bite to eat. after dinner i decided that i wasn't going home and went to his house. we were in bed the whole day. he asked me what was i going to do about Brian. i honestly dont know. he told me that it seemed like i had made my choice, by hooking up with him. not really i am confused. he told me that he dosent have sex for nothing and he hopes this going can go somewhere. dios mios. whats a girl to do?
UPDATE
How the hell would he say he hopes it goes somewhere? I don't even want to think about that. I had finals tomorrow and i needed to go home and study. The new guy made a couple of phone calls from the living room and I laid there thinking. Did I do something dumb? I think I am a whore. Am I? I have only known him a week and already I am spending the night and having sex. Jesus!! He comes back in the bedroom and says to me we have a chance to do a once in a lifetime thing. I didn't want to know what it was because I have finals so if it happening after Thursday I wasn't trying to hear it. He yells out "We can go see the Hawks play tonight!" I gave him a look. "Come one now how many times are the Hawks ever going to be in the playoffs?" You right I said. We chilled out a little bit and left a little early for dinner and went to the game. We had excellent seats and the game was sooo good. Because I was getting along with him so well it made me nervous. Besides I don't know anything about him. What does he do? Does he have kids? Been married or divorced? Anything! He is a mystery. He is only a mystery because I haven't asked him anything because I didnt want him to ask me anything. He has tried to tell me things but I haven been responsive. We have good times, but maybe we shouldn't have had sex so soon. At dinner he told me he would be going back to Houston in July. I am suspecting he plays football. I hope not. We all know how I feel about football players. I don't want to be rude and look him up on the Internet because if I do and he is one I know attitude will become real stank. Next time we go out, I decided that I was going to drill him on certain things. Plus, I have to seriously consider falling back on the sex with him. The odd thing is, I didn't really know what was going with anything else my life but I like whats going on with this guy.
