we were laying bed on tuesday and he told me that he has to leave on thursday for work. he also asked me if i wanted to come along. i have been to houston but i didnt get a chance to hang out. he said it will be fun and i probably shouldnt be alone. i agreed. it didnt take much. we got our tickets and landed in the morning. on the way he told me that his mom, dad, and sister stays at his house. I guess that can be sweet, but where does he go for privacy? he talked about his job and just like i thought he was a football player. fucking great. one had just choked me and now here i am sitting with another potential choker. the flight was relatively short. after we got there and picked up his car we headed off. i love houston its a beautiful city. we traveled a distance to his house which was massive. it was huge!!!!! it had all bay windows, lakefront view with its own pier and dock with a boat, pool, five bedrooms, sunroom, movie room, it was gorgeous. we got settled in and his dad and sister greeted us and introduced themselves. they seemed really cool.
his mom came out and i got kinda of a cold reception. granted i have known him two weeks i dont what he told her but damn she didnt have to be a bitch. that was harsh maybe she is protective.
my life has been out of control for a long time and i dont know how going off to Houston with a man i have only known for two weeks is going to help. he grabbed my hand and led me upstairs. his bedroom was large and gorgeous. Plasma TV, Cali King Bed, marble bathroom, the works. we werent in the bedroom five minutes and he started to kiss me. i stopped him because his parents were down stairs. he went to close the door and pulled me onto the bed. he was kissing me and it was kinda making me feel like a jump off. it just wasnt right. now that i think about it, is that what i am? anyway... he layed me down on my back which was killing me. i couldnt take him on top of me and i pushed him away. whats wrong?...my back is killing me.... i forgot baby i am sorry, you wanna get on top?...i gave him a look that was plain evil. all men think about is sex. ewwww! it disgusts me and turns me off. I should not have been having sex with him in the first place. at least not this quick.
It made me think being here wasnt such a good idea. he must have sensed my utter disdain for that comment because he says he just wanted some affection we didnt have to have sex. whatever was my reply. i was disgusted. i had to get some things off my chest. so thats what i am to you?...what?.. just somebody you have sex with?...no baby, i didnt mean it like that i just.. it dosent matter this isnt working out...what?... its just not. with that i got up got my purse and went to the bathroom. my back was hurting like hell. what the fuck am i saying? my mouth just goes sometimes. he came into the bathroom and grabbed me from behind. i am stressed... he looked at me with puppy dog eyes. he reminds me of buddha from i love new york. His height, his build, those eyes. LAWD!!!! let me take your stress away ,i didnt mean it like that. all i wanted was kisses and hugs, i promise. i realize it hasnt been that long but already you met my mom. he kept talking and that fact started to dawn on me. damn! mom's in two weeks? when i started listening again he was saying i love kissing you, touching you. i know you going through a lot and i want to make it easier. How is he going to do that by fucking me all the time? I highly doubt that will change the situation.
a part of me feels like i cant handle this with him. he is nice but i am broken and damaged and i dont want him to pull out the first aid kit. its too much. "i have to pee" i told him. he kissed me on my neck and left the bathroom. i got the advil out my purse and took five. maybe the extra will give me a slight buzz since he acts all daddy when i drink.
i gathered myself and went to the bedroom, where he was sitting on the bed on the phone. i sat next to him and kissed him. he gave me a look and i kissed him again. there is nothing wrong with affection right? he got off the phone and grabbed my face and started to kiss me. it would be so much easier if he wasnt a good kisser. i ended up getting on top of him and that only made it worse. i was out of my shirt in no time. affection my ass. he was unbuttoning my pants when there was a knock at the door. i stopped but he didnt. knock at the door....they will come back...answer the door.. he ignored that comment and continued to kiss me. this time the door opened and it was mom. sorry to interrupt but we wanted to get lunch and wanted to know that you guys wanted? i am mortified. here i am with no shirt on, on top of her son, and she is standing in the doorway asking questions about lunch. he told her we would be down in a minute. she walked out and closed the door. i was so shocked. he was laughing. i am sorry baby. she probably thinks i am a hoe!!...no she dont.. whatever... i put my bra and shirt back on. he got up, went downstairs and i told him i would be down in a minute. i went to the bathroom and freshned up. i heard the conversation from upstairs. she's a bit loose..ma come on..what kinda girl does that when your parents are at home. we werent doing anything but kissing...thats because i stopped you guys..okay ma.
to say that i am not in the mood is a understatement. i dont do parents. i went and sat on the bed. i layed down and drifted off to sleep. when i woke up the clock read 4:37. i cant believe i slept that long. i layed there drifting in out of sleep and he walked in. he got right behind me and curled up. he felt so good. he kissed me on my neck. i turned around and he began to kiss me. you okay?..yeah my back was hurting.... you need anything?....a glass of wine...he gave me a look. i was thinking we could grab some dinner and hang out for a bit. cool. i changed and 30 minutes later we were out the door. we went into the downtown area to the magnolia hotel. the bar is on the second floor and it was so nice. they had live jazz playing and he ordered our drinks and told me he would be back. minutes later he came back and told me he had a surprise for me.
we sat and talked. he was really intense with the eye contact and it was making me nervous. he was affectionate and was sweet but at the same time it caught me off guard. we left about an hour later and went to eat at a place called perry's. everything was very nice and the food was really good. we came back to the hotel. what are we doing?....you will see... we went up to the rooftop. it was so beautiful. he stood behind me and held me. we didnt say a word. i am scared because i like him. i dont want to but i do. a few minutes later he whispered in my ear, come on. we went back downstairs to a private entrance and entered the most beautiful room i had ever seen. it was huge!!! there at least four dozen flowers in the room. i grabbed him and hugged him. it was kinda like a honey moon suite. I know you probably dont want to stay with my parents so i got us a room....you didnt have to do that i dont mind staying with your parents....he gave me a look he knew i was lying. i dont have any of my stuff. we can get it tomorrow.
i sat on the bed. its something about him that makes me feel safe but i dont want to. he put his arm around me as he sat down next to me. are you happy?...i am...why are you scared of me?..i am scared of what you will do to me...what do you mean? my situation with brian was fucked up and i have just had to many bad sitautions. i know i have done a lot and that scares me too. i am just scared...... baby, i have to be honest with you. PAUSE....... whenever a man says this it is going to be bad. my ex still calls me and i was talking to her up until earlier this week. i wasnt mad. in fact i felt relieved. its what i wanted to hear. i felt like i needed to know something about his life. or at least the women. i talked to her yesterday and i told her that i had met someone. i just wanted to tell you. i dont want to hide anything. i am really feeling you. i know you just got out of something but i would love to pursue more. its just something for you to think about. can we stop having sex? he gave me a look. he opened his mouth to say something but stopped and agreed. damn i didnt think he would agree to easily.
a few minutes later we got up and went downstairs. they have a nitetime cookie bar. we ate cookies and drank milk and a couple of people came up to him to ask for autographs. we took more cookies and went upstairs. we got to the room and i went into his bag and put on a tshirt. i got in the bed and turned on the tv. he changed and joined me. good god he is so fine. we were laying there and i started to drift in and out of sleep. i woke up and the clock read 2:33 am. he was sleeping soundly. i nuzzled up to him. he woke up and put his arm around me and kissed me on the forehead. i kissed him on the lips. he woke up more and we began to kiss. baby we have to stop. he never stopped kissing me. i thought you didnt want to do it anymore.... i dont.... really?....i just want affection. that made him smile. then it dawned on me. he was in houston last week. did you see your ex, i asked him between kisses. huh?....did you see your ex last week?....yeah.... did you sleep with her?....no i didnt....why?...because we had just slept together and plus she was with my mom at the house when i was here...so you would have if it wasnt for your mom?...no baby we had just slept together and i dont get down like that... yeah fucking right the last person that told me that choked me two days ago.
I turned around that killed my mood. The more I talk to him the more I feel like a jump off. I dont want to be with her no more, I am interested in you. I could feel him looking at me but I refused to turn around. he had every right to sleep with her if he wanted but he didnt have to sleep with me to. Do you want her back?....No, hell no.. Will you please turn around? No. i didnt want to because i know if I did he would look at me and I would feel weak and lose. baby, i dont want...when is the last time you slept with her?...March 3 my homeboys birthday. you still have feelings? Not like that i dont want to be with her. I turned around. Why for some reason, i dont believe you?... because you dont trust me anyway, baby just give me a chance i havent done anything wrong. he was right. he kissed me and we know how that story went.
arriving at the complex was an ordeal. He made me drive his truck. Its a big ass Infiniti truck. its was really nice, i just hate driving big vehicles. The plan was to drop him off go and get breakfast with his sister and come back. I dropped him off and was on my way. I got back to his house (thank god for navigation) and I knocked at the door and his sister greeted me. She grabbed her stuff and we were out the door. We went to a spot called Ibiza for lunch. We talked and had good conversation. She told me her brother NEVER lets his family meet the chics he is with. Her mom is off the chain with the women and her dad is off the chain with the men she meets. She also mentioned that her mom and his ex are still close and hang out, which he hates. She told me about her boyfriend and their issues.
I suggested that we all go out to dinner that night. She called her man and suggested a restaurant and booked reservations at Ruth chris. I called him and left a message and went to the mall to find something to wear. The mall was huge and had stores like Carolina Herrea, Chanel, Gucci. I had Brians card but I couldnt use it because it would let him no were I am was. I could be bold and use it, but i wouldnt. If I was spending his money it would have been Louis Vuitton or Gucci but since it was mine I took my ass to old faithful....bebe.
I got a dress and accessories to match shoes I had with me and we left the mall. We were at Starbucks having coffee when he called me back he told he has something to do after practice and that he would meet us there. He also asked me to add a couple of people to the reservation. Baby I completely forgot to leave you money this morning I am sorry.... its cool....i wasnt even thinking about it we will go tomorrow...its cool... you dont understand we got some of the best shopping......its cool. alright baby i miss you i will see you tonight. leave me money? what am i a escort?
we chilled most of the day and got ready. We looked really cute. We waited for her boyfriend to come and headed to the restaurant together. We were standing by the door when Jay came around the corner with some flowers, how sweet! He was joined by two additional couples. He kissed me and we went to our seats. We had a good dinner and went to a bar. We had a couple of drinks and went back to his teammates house. It was in the same area as Jay's and just as large. The guys went into the game room which was a short distance from the pool. The girls started grilling me about us and there was really nothing to tell. Meanwhile the guys were laughing having a good time. They seemed really cool and they were telling me about his ex. Sheila was her name. From what they said she was gorgeous and a gold digger. He gave her everything that she wanted, but she put the pressure on to much about marriage. That and the fact she was spending way too much of his money.
It was getting late and Jay came over and told me he was ready to go. I exchanged numbers with the girls and left. We packed up and made it the short distance to his house. I was tired and I know he had to be. We said our goodbyes and went upstairs. we went straight to bed. I woke up in the morning with a slight headache and the phone was ringing. It was Jay to tell me he left me money and I could take the car if i wanted. He also said he missed me and he would be home around 3. I put my glasses on and turned on the TV. I watched MTV for awhile and I smelled food. I went downstairs and heard conversation. I walked in the kitchen and saw a beautiful honey colored woman and his mom sitting at the table. Hi I said and his mom introduced me to Sheila. WHAT THE F!!!!!!!!! HOLY INAPPROPRIATNESS!!!! My mind was racing. Isnt his ex name Sheila? She was gorgeous. what was she doing here? his mom told me to grab a plate and join them. OH HELL NAWWW! I am from the south I did say naw!!!
I grabbed a plate and sat down. His mom went on to say that this was his ex and she stopped by. Stopped by? Exes dont stop by. She is playing real fucking dirty. I took one nibble of the panckae and noticed they werent eating. I put my fork down. this bitch is scandolous. she probably poisoned the food. They were exchanging memories and laughing it up like old friends. I was so digusted. I said my goodbyes and went upstairs. I cant take this. I had to come up with something. i needed to come up with a plan and quick. I thought about calling Jay and telling him what happened. I didnt. i sat on the bed and thought this shit, maybe this was for the best. i felt like a jump off anyway, its clear his mom didnt like me and he was still talking to her up until recently. an hour later I cooled down, got in the shower and got dressed. I went downstairs to see if anyone was in the house. the coast was seemingly clear. i went into the office and began to look for a phone book. I found one and got the number to a cab company. I wrote that down along with hotel information. I made a reservation at the ICON and called a cab. I had to leave quick because I didnt want anything to stop me. 15 minutes later and cab pulled up and I was gone. I grabbed some lunch and went to the hotel. I was still mad. I have never in my life been through this.
I put my things down and chilled out for a bit. My trip is going to be cut short. I looked up flight information, called the airlines, and got a flight for the next morning. He called me at 2:30 and told me he was on the way home. I told him okay and I will see him later. I guess he didnt know how much later. He called back around 3:20 pm and asked me where i was. I told him that i didnt really want to talk, he was talking to the wrong person, that his mom would know everything with that I hung up.
He called me back 15 minutes later. Baby....silence from me...baby, my mom isnt here. what happened. I went downstairs and your ex girlfriend and your mom were having breakfast and i didnt want to be apart of it. WHAT!!! What the fuck! baby i am so sorry. i...Jay I just got out of a super fucked up situation. I didnt come to Houston to be in another one. I cant do this. we need a break. period. i will not do this again. until your mom get over your ex and you get over your ex, please dont call me. period.....Baby look i... I hung up and turned my phone off. No tolerance. i took myself out to dinner chilled in the hotel and caught my flight in the morning.
What did I tell you about pro athletes? Drama!!!
